I’ve gone through at least 4 jobs in one year.
I’ve struggled to find my way.
I’ve felt isolated, confused, and unsure. I’ve thought I found my purpose only to find out a few short weeks later I was wrong.
I always thought I knew what I wanted when really I didn’t.
I never knew it.
In fact, I always thought the exact opposite.
But the truth of the matter is I am without a doubt, straight up unemployable.
Not because I won’t show up for my job, I’ll do that.
Because I will absolutely hate every second of it.
I HATE when someone tells me what to do.
I specifically remember talking to my boyfriend during one of my short painting stints and telling him that my manager gave me the hardest and worst task of the day. Holding my painting stick above my head ALL day painting a ceiling. No one else had to, just me.
“Well babe, that’s because you’re new and that’s what you have to to”
I HAVE to do?
Nope..that didn’t sit well with me.
In fact, it never sat well with me having to do what others told me.
EVERY dead-end job I took I would convince myself it was the means to an end and that I was going to make money and start my business (whatever that would be – I had no clue, but I had LOTS of ideas)
I’d go to work and dream…dream of the day I could quit.
Then a funny thing happened…I’d get so sick of being stuck in the crappy spot I would quit. Only to take on a new dead-end job.
See, I was good at getting the jobs…but not so great at keeping them.
I had hopes and dreams that were just, so much bigger. I didn’t want to be the worker, I wanted to be the boss. I wanted to control my destiny. I wanted to have a purpose.
Fast forward to Covid – it was this opportunity that granted me permission to move into my own business – A virtual assistant.
Was it glamorous? Nope.
Was I my own boss? You betcha.
& that was all I needed. I will tell you this. I’m not where I want to be yet but I’m getting closer every day.
So if you’re like me and you feel unemployable – know this
You are not alone. In fact, you are the exact opposite.
You are exactly where you are supposed to be. Right here. Right now.
I write this because sometimes when you go against the grain, you feel like you are the duck in a sea of chickens (or something similar). It feels like almost every little thing that goes slightly wrong can force you to go back to the “norm”. Forget your dreams and just head back to reality and do what you’ve been taught to do.
So I’m here to tell you this – there is no “normal”. But there is you and your dreams. Your dreams look different than4 my dreams and that’s how it’s supposed to be.
Keep pushing, keep being you.
Because when it’s all said and done what do you want to look back on?
For me, I want to know, undoubtedly I pushed for my dreams.
My crazy, so – far from normal dreams.